I feel like I'm a lot more prickly than I either used to be or want to be; I also feel like that prickliness doesn't come out uniformly, that it gets triggered by certain contexts.
Assuming that's true:
Localized infections are problematic but manageable; I don't want this to spread.
And with Agile Open California coming up, another reason why I'm feeling blocked (not just about blogging, more in general): for the last decade or so, I've spent a lot of time thinking about agile and related concepts, and running experiments to try to learn more. And, right now, my standard ways of running experiments in that regard aren't available, which is unsettling.
Which doesn't necessarily mean that I really am blocked: maybe it's a sign that I should enlarge my context, for example. But it's definitely thrown me off my game.
Something to think about; and, no matter what, I'm looking forward to Agile Open California, even if I expect it to be a bit frustrating last year.
(I would seem to have written a not-completely-dissimilar fragment after Agile Open California last year. Hmm.)
Thinking more about why I'm feeling unproductive: that mostly concerns how I use my evening time. Like I said in that fragment, I'm not infrequently tired, and I'm also watching TV a bit more than usual. (I try to put the TV time on days when I happen to be more tired.)
But part of it is that I downloaded a few puzzle programs for my iPad; Slitherlink in particular is both incredibly addictive and inserts itself into little fragments in my time if I let it. And it's very easy to let those fragments add up, so they turn from brief breaks into a sizeable chunk of my evening.
Which, on the one hand, I should guard against. But, on the other hand: I like thinking about games, and Slitherlink certainly gives me material for that. (I'll write more about that on my main blog over the next week or two.) So I don't want to beat myself up over it, either.
I'm in one of my periodic slumps where I feel unproductive. Though, as slumps go, this isn't a particularly bad one: I actually have a bunch of posts to write, I'm just not writing them quite as quickly as I'd like.
There's a bit of a malaise beyond that: I'm not sure how much I want to focus on games blogging these days. (I'm not at all sure if I'll go to GDC this year.) But I also don't have ideas about something different to focus on instead.
Ah well; it will sort itself out. Like I said, this isn't a particularly bad one, mostly I just need to sit down and write. Probably all that's going on is that I'm a little more tired than I had been; some combination of getting up earlier to take the train plus allergies being worse than normal.
A few weeks ago, my back started hurting; I think it was because I'd recently switched to shoes with extremely thin soles (leather, maybe 2mm?) as opposed to merely very thin soles (rubber, 5mm), and walking with those shoes on concrete was too jarring. So I ordered another set of the less thin version, and wore sneakers in the meantime; and my back started to get better. (And my coworkers commented on my wearing sneakers; I wasn't expecting that.)
Now I'm back to the sort of shoes that I'd been wearing for a year and a half; but something isn't feeling right. Both in my back and in my walking: I think I'm overconscious about how I'm walking, and sometimes I'm having my heel hit first, sometimes I'm having the ball of my foot hit first, sometimes I'm doing some sort of weird halfway thing, and some subset of those leads to unexpectedly abrupt contact.
Hopefully this will sort itself out soon...